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| PC BOUND! |
[Jun. 2nd, 2004|11:39 pm] |
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| |  ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Julie Roberts - Break Down Here | ] |
Yeah guys its going to be a weekend to remember! Hehe! I'm going to PC this weekend. I am so excited! Logan has a baseball tournament so Momma, Mark, me, and Daddy are gonna go! This could be very interesting! Hehe! I need to wash some clothes! And get my clothes up to take to Dave Shirley for my clothing screening before I have my Senior Portraits made! |
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| EMPLOYED HOT DAMN! |
[May. 4th, 2004|06:50 pm] |
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| | excited | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ashanti - Baby | ] |
I start work at the daycare again tomorrow! I worked there last Aug. - Oct. I bleieve. Had to quit b/c I didnt make any money, but with school ending I should be ableto work and good bit during the day! I really miss working with the kids. They can test your patience a great deal, but its okay! A pay check is a pay check!
Write more later! Time to go walking! |
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| One of those days when you wanna !~SCREAM~! |
[May. 3rd, 2004|03:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | JoJo - Leave | ] |
Today is not a good day by any means at all! Don't you just love it when someone lies to you thinking they will get away with you never finding out, but oh no, you find out babe. You now know everything! And what makes it so bad is they keep trying to lie about it. Oh, it just makes me laugh now. Heh, why do guys believe women are so dumb that we won't be able to sniff out their lies? I don't care that you went out of town, but don't feed me some sob story that leaves me worrying all weekend, not being able to talk to you and make sure everything is all right. You are just so full of yourself that you honestly believe you can do as you please with no regard for others. I wish I had never once looked upon you, spoken to you, EVER in my life came into contact with you! I am truthfully so apalled by you at this moment that it makes me sick. Why do you make me feel as if I am going to go crazy and wind up in the nut house? I scroll through my phone, see your number and cringe. But what irritates me the most is that I know I'm weak enough to hear your appology and, not forget, but forgive and move on. Really I guess that doesnt make me very weak, but stronger that you will ever be because atleast I'm not the one who lied to someone I care about, now am I?
Okay, I feel better now! Just had to get that off my chest, because I know I will never have the nerve to tell him off!
-exhausted- |
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| Good nights sleep.. |
[May. 1st, 2004|10:45 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Usher - Burn | ] |
Well I went to sleep about 2 this morning and woke up about nine.. Looked at my lj and saw that wonderful creation that Jos and Kaydee made for me! Kisses! Ya'll are so sweet! :)
WEll, shower time! Going shopping so I need to get ready! |
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| ~!ThAnKs KaYdEe!~ |
[Apr. 30th, 2004|11:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Whatever TK keeps playing... | ] |
First of all thanks Kaydee for fixing my journal! You're the best!
I know its been forever, but forgive me.. Things have been crazy around here and I stay busy quite a good bit of time now! A routine I plan to get out of very soon I hope.
I went to see a friend on mine tonight who I have not been able to see in the past week or so.. I've been really worried about him so seeing him made me feel better! Its crazy how you worry ab someone so much when theres nothing there, there.. Ya know? Hehe! Probably not! But atleast I'm NOT talking about Thomas this time! I've given up on that! Forget him! I'm not waiting around for nothing when I could be out w/ someone else or doing something w/ ppl I really care alot about!
Then went to the movies tonight w/ TK, Jess, and Ash.. The movie was so funny.. Johnson Family Vacation is too funny! I had a fun and interesting night! I'm really tired though! I guess thats about all for tonight! |
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| What if.... |
[Mar. 6th, 2004|06:27 pm] |
If I were a month, I'd be: October
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Saturday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 10:00 PM
If I were a planet, I'd be: Venus
If I were a sea animal, I'd be: Dolphin
If I were a direction, I'd be: South
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: A love seat
If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Eleanor Roosevelt.. So down to Earth..
If I were a liquid, I'd be: Something sweet
If I were a tree, I'd be: Cedar
If I were a clothing accessory, I'd be: Necklace
If I were a bird, I'd be: Bluejay
If I were a tool, I'd be: a level
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: a Rose
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: a sun shine that warms and lasts.
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: I dont know!
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: the guitar.
If I were an animal, I'd be: a tiger.
If I were a color, I'd be: babybird blue.
If I were an emotion, I'd be: happiness.
If I were a vegetable, I'd be: baby english peas.
If I were a sound, I'd be: a cell phone ringing.
If I were an element, I'd be: Wind.
If I were a car, I'd be: a 1965 Mustang.
If I were a song, I'd be: So many..
If I were a movie, I'd be: A League of Thier Own
If I were a book, I'd be: Twilight Hunger
If I were a food, I'd be: a cheese stick.
if I were a place, I'd be: Bahamas
If I were a material, I'd be: silk.
If I were a taste, I'd be: so sweet.
If I were a scent, I'd be: Still by J-Lo.
If I were an object, I'd be: Spoon.
If I were a body part, I'd be: shoulders.
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: a perfect smile.
If I were a subject in school, I'd be: history.
If I were a shape, I'd be a: pear
If I were a number, I'd be: 17. |
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| Silly rabbit, tricks are for kids! |
[Feb. 8th, 2004|10:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | optimistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Usher - You Make Me Wanna | ] |
This weekend was lazy and productive all in the same. Fairly unusual if you ask me, but I'm not going to complain. Didn't accomplish much more than getting a lot of rest, which was much needed.
Thomas and I spent some time together Saturday. Not really sure what to say about all that. But I'm just along for the ride right now. Theres nothing I can do so I may as well just sit back and see what happens. If we get back together then we do, if not theres not much else I can do anymore.
Well, I'm gonna look around on the net. Mwahhh! |
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| Relax! |
[Feb. 4th, 2004|04:26 pm] |
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Mom and Mark are going out to eat tonight. That means I get to cook supper for me and my brother. Spaghetti it is! Hehe! I love to cook, but I have so much to do its gonna have to be something quick and simple tonight. I actaully do not want to cook at all, but they want to go out w/ no kids so what can I do? McDonald's would be a good choice, but that requires going up to road and all that mess which I think is not good for tonight. Besides I have to be at the tanning bed at 7:30 and then I can just come home and cook.. I really love nights where you don't have a lot to really do, as far as going places, and can just relax at home and take your time with things. |
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| On... And on... And on... And on... |
[Feb. 2nd, 2004|10:32 pm] |
I'm in a very good mood tonight. I'm not exactly sure why, but I'm not going to fight it a bit! Went rounds w/ old Tom.. But thats okay! I'm gettin use to this. I dont know why I dont just end it.. I guess I care to much! And oh, of course, it is all my fault. I just have the tendency it seems to lead ppl on! Come on now, yeah right! If I'm leading anyone on its myself. I'm really to nice and sweet to lead anyone on. Ask Kori! (That didnt come out right, but you know..) I went to the tannin bed tonight and just laid there thinking ab what a bad person I am for all of this and how bad I really should feel. BUT the thing is, I dont feel bad. not on single fuckin bit. I'm not going to allow myself to feel bad for something someone else could have fixed a long time ago!
Whew.. Enough venting! Had to get that out of my system though~! I feel much better now. Time for me to head on to bed! |
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| - * - W i T h - * - A - * - T a S t E - * - |
[Feb. 2nd, 2004|10:09 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Britney Spears - Toxic | ] |
Baby, can't you see
I'm calling
A guy like you
Should wear a warning
It's dangerous
I'm falling
There's no escape
I can't wait
I need a hit
Baby, give me it
You're dangerous
I'm loving it
Too high
Can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning round and round
Do you feel me now?
With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do
But you know that you're toxic
It's getting late
To give you up
I took a sip
From my devil's cup
Slowly
It's taking over me
Too high
Can't come down
It's in the air
And it's all around
Can you feel me now?
With a taste of your lips,
I'm on a ride,
You're toxic,
I'm slipping under,
With a taste of a poison paradise,
I'm addicted to you,
Don't you know that you're toxic?
And I love what you do,
But you know that you're toxic!
But you know that you're toxic!
Taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic?
With a taste of your lips
I'm on a ride
You're toxic
I'm slipping under (toxic)
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you
Don't you know that you're toxic
Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now
I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now
With your loving now
I think I'm ready now |
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| Weekends over.. |
[Feb. 1st, 2004|09:54 pm] |
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Well the weekends over now. Time to start my ever so long week again. I really enjoyed this weekend. Didn't really do much of anything. Friday night I went out to eat w/ Brittany and her family. Saturday laid around the house, went hunting that afternoon. (Needed to kill some time) And today I was for the mot part lazy. Went to my uncles to watch some of the Super Bowl (Go Patriots!), and then went to a friends house to see him before he left to go back to school. I love seein old friends! Never realize how much you miss seeing someone til they aren't really there anymore!
Thomas read my last entry (Thanks Kori!), so now I've gotten all these I'm sorries, I screwed ups, blah blah blah.. He says he understands now that he hurt me, but I don't really think he understands it at all, and it really kills me that he thinks he does. He says we need to talk, but we don't. i try but its like he doesn;t want to and theres nothing i can do ab it so I don't.
Well I'm gonna watch the rest of the game and go on to bed! |
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| Love.. HA! |
[Jan. 25th, 2004|08:23 pm] |
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| |  bitchy | ] |
How can a guy just all of a sudden decide that he wants to get back together with you? Just break up w/ you and then figure hes ready for this relationship now? It drives me crazy. Thomas and I started dating and all and everything seemed so wonderful, or so I had thought. Well all of a sudden one Monday he texts me and says "Do you think we are right for each other?" I was so dumb struck all I could ask was why he was thinking about that.. Well we broke things off, but I missed him and it drove me crazy. Well the next week there was a party in AU it turned out we were both plannin to attend. Well Brittany told him that I really didn't want him to go b/c with him there I wouldn't be able to really be myself, that I didnt want to flirt w/ anyone in front of his face b/c I would feel bad even though I shouldn't. He got pissed and started acting like a butt, which made me feel even worse, but we are not dating so I should be able to do what I want. This weekend he comes over after we had talked abd gettin back together and i think that all of this made me feel like I don't want to be w/ him at all. Just friends and thats it! Well now he cant seem to understand it. Oh, and on top of that he's telling some girl he loves and misses her, and thinks its okay to do that b/c she does not live around here. Okay, no! It does not work that way! When he came over today and came in my room i just kind of laid there for a while and didnt say anything to him. He finally asked if I was mad at him and I told him yes I am. He tells me I have no reason to be so that leads to an argument, but of course I am right! What really gets me is that I do miss him a great deal! But theres not a whole lot I'm going to do ab it! I just dont feel like going through it again! It broke my heart the last time honestly. We both feel very fast! VERY fast! I can't really explain it all!
Theres the update of my "love life".. And that all for tonight! |
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| HaPpY TuRkEy DaY! |
[Nov. 27th, 2003|10:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  full | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Avant - I can read your mind | ] |
Its been so long since I've written. Time just passes by so fast its unreal! Todays seemed to drag out though. I guess being around so much family it just kind of does that sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I love being with my family, but sometimes so much of it can kind of start to annoy you to death. Just one of those things I suppose. Some relatives you can just look at and become annoyed with. Trust me! I have a 14 yr. old cousin who lives in FL and I really just do not like him very much at all. Just the sound of his voice drives me up the wall! His parents are just as bad, but I smile and pretend that I care ab whatever subject they are discussing at the time.
Phone call.. I'll write more later! |
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| Brighter days ahead.. |
[Aug. 3rd, 2003|10:20 pm] |
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Well its been a while so I guess I should update you.. My brother and his 15 yr. old Babe Ruth Baseball team won Regionals in Andalusia, AL and leave Aug. 14th for Williston, ND for the World Series. They will be gone for 10 days! So I'll be home alone! I'm so excited ab that, but I honestly don't want them to go now! I don't know whats wrong w/ me.. I'm just gonna miss my Bubba! Oh yeah, and Momma, Mark, Daddy and Grandmomma! Can't forget ab them too!
A friend of mine had her baby today! She's so beautiful! She weighed in at 7 lbs. 3 ozs. and 20 in. long! Its just amazing! Makes me wanna have a baby!
But starting at 8 in the morning I'm sure I'll have ab enough of kids! I start work at a daycare tomorrow! I'm excited b/c I love kids! But I don't know what aged group I will have yet!
School starts back the 7th.. Thats the main reason I won;t be going to ND with them.. If I got I'll miss a bunch of days of school. The 15th - 25th.! Well, I'm going on to bed! Good night! |
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[Jul. 27th, 2003|10:20 pm] |
I WANT: to sleep
I HAVE: a head ache
I WISH: i knew what i wanted
I HATE: obsessive ppl
I MISS: bryan
I FEAR: losing someone dear
I HEAR: t.v.
I SEARCH: for answers
I WONDER: when i'll learn to just give up on some ppl
I REGRET: not being around as much
I LOVE: chocolate ice cream
I ACHE: when i can't talk to bryan
I ALWAYS: care to much
I AM NOT: dumb
I DANCE: when i hear a song i like
I SING: all the time
I CRY: when stressed or upset..
I AM NOT ALWAYS: so sweet
I WRITE: when i need to get something out
I WIN: trust
I LOSE: my mind sometimes
I CONFUSE: myself
I NEED: my baby
I SHOULD: pack |
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| Bored as hell.. |
[Jul. 25th, 2003|01:11 pm] |
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1. First Grade Teacher Name? Mrs. Fuller
2. Last Words You Said: Thank you.
3. Last Song You Sang? Ruben Studdard - Flying Without Wings
4. Last Person You Hugged? Momma
5. Last Thing You Laughed At? Brandi
6. Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It? Last night to Bryan..
7. Last Time You Cried? Last night b/c of Bryan.. (I think I'm seeing a pattern)
8. What's In Your CD Player? Sarai
9. What Color Socks Are You Wearing? White.
10. What's Under Your Bed? Shoe boxes
11. What Time Did You Wake Up Today? 8:00 am
12. Current Taste? Orbit gum
13. Current Hair? Brownish blond, curled at ends, right at my shoulder..
14. Current Clothes? AE shirt. Areopostale jeans, Timberlands
15. Current Annoyance? Obsessive ppl
16. Current Longing? Food!
17. Current Desktop Picture? Mountain w/ clouds..
18. Current Worry? If its going to rain
19. Current Hate? That I haven't talked to my brother to find out how he did in his game.
20. Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex? Eyes, hair, body shape..
21. Last CD You Bought? Been so long I don't remember.
22. Favorite Place To Be? On the beach at sunset
23. Least Favorite Place? Some ppls houses..
24. Time You Wake Up In The Morning? Normally ab 11, but lately earlier..
25. If You Could Play An Instrument? Guitar
26. Favorite Color? Blue or yellow.
27. Do You Believe In An Afterlife? Yes.
28. How Tall Are You? 5'3"
29. Current Favorite Word/Saying? GDMFSOB.. You figure it out!
30. Favorite Book? Sweet Potatoe Queens Book of Love by Jill Connor Browne
31. Favorite Season? Summer or Winter!
32. One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: Paw Paw.. I miss him
33. Favorite Day? Saturdays
34. Where Would You Like To Go? Somewhere tropical
35. What Is Your Career Going To Be Like? Full of adventure
36. How Many Kids Do You Want? 2
37. Favorite Car? Silverado Z71 or F250
38. Type A Line You Remember From Any Book: The Promise..
39. A Random Lyric: I'm flying without wings
40. Identify Some Of The Things Around You: Burned cd's, Compa book, 8 oz. bottle of pepsi, another comp.. |
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| Tears... |
[Jul. 24th, 2003|10:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ruben Studdard - Flying Without Wings | ] |
Well things went from better to worse.. Got to thinkin ab Bryan when I was talking to Brittany.. Made me cry! REAL BAD! I miss him s much, and we all think hes seeing someone else, which ya know I cant really say anything ab but if he really is then that means he keeps lying to me. I havent done this to myself in a long time.. And thats all it is.. Me! I just dont know what else to do.. *Someone hold me!*
Well, I'm going to bed.. I am doing pretty good ab writing today! 3 times! Thats like some kind of record for me or something! G'night! |
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| Better |
[Jul. 24th, 2003|05:40 pm] |
Ok, well I went to work at Langley's today. This car place my Momma works at. I worked w/ Bebo (Brandon) all day doing statements. He's a trip. He made my day a whole lot better, so I am thankful for that! I'm ab to fall asleep now. I'm home alone and theres nothing to do and normally when I get real still and theres not anything to do I get real sleepy! I don't need to go to slep, but who knows.
I talked to Bryan, but it consisted of nothing really.. :(
I think i may go to AU tonight and get a new outfit for this weekend, but I dont know yet. Sounds like a good idea to me!
Well, I'm gone for now. Gotta phone call I need to make! |
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| Rodeo bound... |
[Jul. 24th, 2003|09:29 am] |
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| |  stressed | ] |
These past few days have been quite an interesting expirence! Me and Bryan are fussin, well not actually fussin, so I dont exactly know what the hell you would call it.. All I know is: It ain't looking good.. So it may be time to throw in the towel, no matter how much I dont want to.. Doesn't seem to matter to much these days what I want. I hate how ppl try and make plans and don't consult with you on them. Pretty messed up if you ask me, but whatever.
Everything started out w/ the pla being me and Brittany going to Andalusia to watch The 15 yr. old Alabama boys who won state for the Babe Ruth League play Friday, being home by 2:30 so Britt could go to work and I'd go get Daddy's truck and wash it and all that good stuff before the rodeo. Going back down there Sat. with Momma and coming home late Sun., and the maybe going back down there w/ Daddy Monday so he can watch them, and who knows what days after that b/c they were told to pack for the full seven dayds incase they won their pool. Well last night Momma up and tell me that we are leavin Fri. when she gets off work, so that means no rodeo. Well, I'm already pissed by this point b/c we had been plannin this since we knew ab it! Then, I get home from going to get some stuff and taking it to Logan at TJ's house, and momma tells me that we will just go Sat. morning. So I actually dont know whats gonna happen. All I know it I'm going to the rodeo now.
I went this morning w/ momma to tell Logan and TJ bye. Logan drives me crazy, but I know these few days without him are gonna drive me crazy. I guess its always like that with brothers and sisters!
Well, I need to go dry my hair and get ready to go up to Langley's! |
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[Jul. 18th, 2003|01:48 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ruff Endz - Will You Be Mine | ] |
Well these past 3 weeks have been kind of lonely. Bryan hasn't been here since the weekend of the wedding! I miss him so much!
-- will you be mine on this day
will you be the sun shining may
will you be the stars and my nights
will you be the joy, the joy in my life
will you be my everything
will you be the happy every song i sing
will you be the love i cant deny
will you be the love, the love of all time
will you be mine --
But on to other subjects..
I'd tell you what all I've been up tolately, but you can just read Brittany's and you'll know! hehe! so I guess thats all for tonight! I need to get some sleep! |
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